Has there ever been a moment when you struggle to make a decision and have no idea what to decide? Fear strikes you in many ways because you do not know what is on the other side. You worry is this God’s will or yours? You wonder what if I make a mistake in my decision? What if the choice seems so good but you aren’t sure if it is God? Good and God can be so similar at times it is hard to distinguish. What do you do?
Praying is always a good reason to obtain God’s solution in any and every situation we are faced with. “ Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, present your requests to god” Philippians 4:6. In our prayers we should keep in mind asking for wisdom and understanding to handle our situations. In the book of James 1:5-7 is remind us, “ If anyone of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be give in to you. But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord”
Lately I have been battling in my thoughts and struggling emotionally to make a choice whether we should pursue a second location. A major concern that is keeping me from making a solid decision is “is this God’s will or ours” Initially I had no concerns about moving forward in faith as I prayed and believed God will open and confirm as we move forward in faith. Along the way God has shown us a lot of favor from the people we dealt with through this process. But what made me second guess was when our application for a bank loan got declined. Truthfully , God was more than able to release the funds, if he willed to, from the bank to meet our needs for opening the new location. After all He is sovereign and in control over all the things on earth right? But the fact that we didn’t get approved had me asking God “does this mean no not now God” From that very simply question I became weary and concerned. I began to doubt, questioned my husbands ability of making the right decision and became quite exhausted emotionally and mentally. On top of that being pregnant my body was feeling the stress and fatigued. All of this did not help me at all cope with the situation. In fact got me wanting to give in to my flesh by giving up and sadly placed a gap between my husband and I. Truly God’s word reminded me, “ but when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord”
Because I doubted, I made way for my thoughts and emotions to “blow and toss” me back and forth unable to see, receive or discern clearly from God.
Doubt sure has its way of paralyzingly our faith and disabling us to trust God fully. But praise be to God for his everlasting love that never changes even though we may change. Giving us chance after chance, day after day to redo, restore and renew our thoughts and trust in Him. Through all this I have learned “ give thanks in ALL circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus”. I Thessalonians 5:18. It is easy to focus on the negative, but a lot of courage and discipline to praise and give Him thanks in the storm. Let us choose to praise Him in our trying times as it releases faith to overpower the fear that has imprisoned us in our emotions and doubts.
DEAR GOD, THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS PLACING THE DESIRE TO REACH OUT FOR YOU WHEN I AM BROKEN OR LOST. THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME CONTINUE TO PURSUE EVEN WHEN I AM CONFUSED AND UNCERTAIN. THANK YOU FOR NEVER GIVING UP ON ME BUT GIVING ME THE HEART TO DRAW CLOSE TO YOU WHEN I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. EVEN IF DRAWING CLOSE TO YOU AND YOU DONT NECESSARILY MAKE IT CLEAR AS TO WHAT I AM TO DO I WOULD STILL RATHER BE IN YOUR PRESENCE AND IN YOUR ARMS THEN TO BE ELSE WHERE. THANK YOU DAD FOR NEVER LETTING ME LET GO. THANK YOU DAD THAT IT MAY BE HARD AT TIMES PURSUING MY FAITH WALK WITH YOU AS I DONT ALWAYS HAVE THE ANSWER TO EVERYTHING I NEED TO KNOW, BUT YOU REMAIN FAITHFUL TO ME AND ENABLING ME TO REMAIN FAITHFUL AND PURSUING YOU DESPITE HOW MESSED UP I CAN BE EMOTIONALLY, MENTALLY, PHYSICALLY AND SPIRITUALLY. THANK YOU FOR YOUR LOVE AND PRAYERS FOR ME THROUGH OTHERS. THANK YOU FOR ENABLING ME TO BE PERSISTENT IN PRESSING ON, PRESSING HARD AND PRESSING FOWARD! THANK YOU DAD THAT IT IS BY YOUR EVER LASTING STRENGTH THAT I AM ABLE TO DO WHAT I DO. PHILIPPIANS 4:13 MAY I REMIND YOU “I CAN DO ALL THINGS BECAUSE OF THE STRENGTH YOU HAVE GIVEN ME” THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME AS I AM, AND LOVING ME ENOUGH NOT TO LEAVE ME AS I AM BUT CHOOSING TO LEAD ME IN A LIFE OF WHOLENESS. I PRAISE AND THANK YOU ALL IN JESUS NAME, AND GODS CHILDREN SAID AMEN!